letter found in desk: from John, 1977(excerpt

dear ray,

a classmate of one year, a tortured American who went to Vietnam
believed it from the Midwest stayed in Japan for five years
put a plastic bag on his head and gassed himself last week. news

today i went to first funeral
an 18 year old boy trembling voice broke down sobbing
nun took his hand

my head cut to porno, she undresses
pain is so private

**

at Roppongi kosaten
guzen ni saw circus girl and friend passing by

everyone wants to hear from ray

love and phantasmagoria,

John